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now i am an MMU student. Some people asked me, why you choose IPTS? tak layak masuk IPTA eh? haha, FYI bukan tak layak, i got offered from matriks and also uitm. but for some reasons, i can't make myself to go there. and alhamdulillah, MARA offered me to study accounting at MMU. yeah, that's the best i think. so far everything is okay here. i enjoy myself here. i feel comfortable. yeah. that's the introduction, this post dah lama duduk dalam draft, lolsss. can't sleep tonight. it's already 3.04am. and i have to wake up by 6.30 tomorrow as i have to be at the STAD by 7.30am. i am going to PWTC this morning. hmmm. i am missing him. so bad. for more than a month, we can't contact each other as he had his orientation in UPNM, and now, we still rarely contact each other. i talked to my best pal about this, it is not that i sengaja nak mengadu, but then, benda ni terkeluar sendiri. he stated his opinion that my bodyguard might have another girl there, and i was like, NO WAY! HE CAN'T! but for sure, i can't 100% cuba yakinkan diri yang statement tu takkan terjadi. yeah. i cried while thinking all the possibilities. hmm. i am too afraid to face the same problem about love, the betrayal, unloyalty and whatsoever. next, i talked to my best pal, about my relationship with ws before this, and he asked me, to think, "siapa yang you lagi sayang sekarang?"yes, i can lie to him, i can lie to others that i moved on,the truth is i am still trying to move on, and how could i moved on, if ws still treat me like this, yeah, tepuk sebelah tangan tak berbunyi, but then, i am lonely right now, without my bodyguard with me. and ws came at the right time, at the time when i need someone. ironinya, my bodyguard called the night i talked to my best pal and said "i setia, i still sayang you, i tak cari yang lain , i mungkin rapat dengan perempuan lain, tapi i sayang you" the statement that makes me calm and i believe him. but whatever it is, i still believe in JODOH DITANGAN ALLAH, KALAU ADA JODOH TAK KE MANA. i just hope the best for my life. insyaAllah.